b'Down A PegIll throw half my rent away on Ticketmaster to standTen feet closer to a girlBelting about lesbianism.And then: the guilt hits -Not over the lesbianism,Dont you worry.That guilt; soaks like a tar tilSatisfied Ive scraped the fundsTo pay back what I now owe the feeling.You eventually filter the substance of Rejections. Ctrl+F: Yes/No.Christs sake.Only a handfulHave the decency to block your address;Stead of drafting up pleasantries -Why, youre strapped to draft your own.Fifty CVs filterInto spam folders, beforeA green-grocer takes pityOn broke youth.Wish I could say it was easy pickings,But I aint done.Guilt isnt happy with sweet berries.It craves the cold, hard cash.Walter McCabe17'